Mommy, Mommy, why can't you love me?
Written by Kelsey Carroll
Child Abuse Poems
When I was a little girl…
I cried as you beat me
Why doesn’t she love me?
When I was a little girl…
I pleaded locked alone in the dark
Why doesn’t she love me?
When I was a little girl…
And you were out with yet another new man
I sobbed
Why doesn’t she love me?
When I was a little girl…
And needed you so desperately
I asked God
Why doesn’t she love me?
When as a teen I turned to drugs for solace…
I screamed at you
Why don’t you love me?
When as a teen I turned to sex for affection…
I demanded to know
Why don’t you love me?
When as a teen my emptiness turned to suicidal rage…
I hurt you, myself, God and anybody near
Yearning for an explanation
Why doesn’t she love me?
As an adult…
I struggle daily to battle the demons you left me with
Why doesn’t she love me?
As an adult…
I fight the anguished pain to overcome the past torments
Why doesn’t she love me?
Now as a mother myself…
I look at my innocent babe and know
I am capable of great love
I am worthy of love
Love is precious
Love protects
I deserve to be loved
Mother what was wrong with you?
You could not see the love and worship your child had for you
the love you abused and threw away, the child you broke
The woman she grew into is stronger than you
Her child will never wonder...
Why doesn't she love me
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