Only When I'm Alone

by Stephen Doyle

Only when I’m alone can my true thoughts come to light,
When I’m alone I can think to myself without question.

"My life, My Problems" That’s what I say.
It's not true.

I want to share my feelings, to allow another gaze inside my mind.
But there’s nobody like that.
Nobody I care about enough to even tell them exactly what I’m thinking
about

There is only one I think about telling
Only one I could tell.
It may not be you, I don’t know

Soon I’ll decide.
But only when I’m alone

Thirsting to Feel

by Dee Warnock

Here I sit
alone in the dark
contemplating
where to make the mark

I feel the urge
it's getting strong
I know I can do it
it won't be long

This time
it is the first
I need to do this
I have to quench my eternal thirst

Position the knife
I am ready
close my eyes
hold my hand firm and steady

As I drag the knife
I begin to cry
not from pain
but from the sensation of feeling alive

I know this is not right
I know this is a sick way to deal
but since I can't on the inside
I cut myself on the outside to feel

Same Old Feeling

by Sylvia

Slight twitching, sorry. I seem to have no glory.
It is some kind of an obsession, PLEASE STOP BUYING!
I am not a goddamned concession.
Confusion and bad dreams, nothing is as it seems.
Bury my face in the sun, there is no place I can run.
Some world this is! Nothing to hold on to anymore, I long so dearly for a unique kiss.
I might as well be dead, because it is this simple life I dread.