Beginning Anew
Written by Jennifer Shook
Poems about life
( 3 Votes )There's a fear in me I can't explain
Boiling inside me, feeding off my pain
I thought I could do this, but now I'm not so sure
For my heart is still broken, my ailments uncured.
Where do you escape to when what you're running from is you
How can i convince myself, this is something I must do
That I must now leave behind what I've always known
To create a new world, a new life of my own
I wish you could comfort me, and tell me I'll be fine
But I know you can't, for this burden is solely mine
I tried to trick myself into thinking you would understand
That you could walk beside me, that you would lend a hand
Why are we trapped in this never ending tug-of-war
What is it that we can't agree on, what are we fighting for
Are we not both trying to figure out what is best for me
If so, how can you not realize what you want can never be
I cannot return to the life that I once knew
I cannot come home, just because it pleases you
I have no hope nothing's left for me there
Even so, by leaving you, it doesn't mean I don't care
I'm not leaving you behind, I'm not doing this out of spite
I'm simply trying to do what is best, what is right
Please consider the facts, please don't despair
For I'm already nervous, I'm already scared
I am starting out fresh, I'm beginning anew
I am giving myself a chance, I'm not taking one from you
You can no longer control my life, I'm taking that power away
I'm going to take charge of myself, I'm learning to keep my demons at bay
As I prepare for this new journey into the unknown
I know you will always be there, wanting me to come home
But I pray that you will not try to fight it or interfere
For now the time has come, now I must face my fear
I know I have to go and leave my comfort zone behind
Just know that I still live you and you'll be on my mind
Sometimes life can seem too hard and so unfair
But I hold onto the hope that I haven't been given more than I can bear
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